Today one year ago was Sandy's funeral. The last time I was able to tuck her in to rest peacefully forever. Sandy always went to bed well before I did most nights and I would frequently come up to bed and have to remove her glasses and tuck her in as she would fall asleep reading or watching tv. So one year ago today when I tucked her in and covered her up in the casket is a memory I will never forget. Don't get me wrong it was tough then and also thinking about it now, but am grateful I was the one to do it for her as I had done many previous nights.
I had not thought as much about this day in advance as I did many of the other 1st's or 1st anniversaries. Nor did I expect this day to be as tough as some of the others until this morning. Mind you it was not the 1st thing that popped into my mind this morning even though I knew the date. I later found myself emotional and I was not sure why at that moment until I thought about it and all those memories came rushing back both good and sad. One of the better memories was the eulogy my eldest son (30) gave. He spoke of funny memories growing up, the loving memories, how Sandy was a loving wife, Mom and friend to all. The last words of his speech were "Damn I wish I would have spent just a little more time with her just doing anything". I was so proud of him and know his Mom was too that day.
My Sandy Beach you will be forever missed but your memory will live forever!!!