I need to vent out today into the web sphere. That way not much of my friend will know what I'm going through Today and Yesterday.
I have no idea why, maybe it was the Alcohol I drank at my friends birthday or just one of those sad days but...
MAN IS THIS MONTH ROUGH!!
I CRIED SO HARD IN FRONT OF MY SHRINK LAST THURSDAY. HE SUGGESTED MAYBE ITS A GOOD IDEA TO GO BACK TAKING ANTI-DEPRESSANT. (I don't really want to be on it during my ASIA trip)!
I AM GOING NUTS, FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IS SO UNREAL!
I WANT TO BASH MY HEAD INTO THE CEMENT WALL!
HOW COME 10TH MONTH IS SO FREAKING HARD FOR ME!
WHERE ARE YOU MICHAEL! YOU CAN'T JUST DIE!
THERE SHOULD BE A PLACE WHERE PEOPLE CAN PAY A FEE AND GO TRASH A ROOM AND BREAK THINGS. BECAUSE I FEEL VERY DESTRUCTIVE AT THE MOMENT. I WANT TO BREAK THINGS!
I'M GOING NUTS,
I FEEL LIKE I HAVE AN ADDICTION
I CAN'T GET MY SHIT TOGETHER BECAUSE I NEED HIM
I'M GOING NUTS!