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Dragging myself out of bed and getting into the shower. Getting ready to go to a place where I do not want to go. Dragging my butt to church and going thru the motions. Putting on that happy and "I have everything under control" face on for the community and my sons. It seems as if I am always going thru the motions to make everyone ( including family) think I am ok. My life is so different now. Everyone has returned to theirs as I knew they would (my husband died 2 1/2 years ago). What happens to me? My sons will be going to college next year and the year after. Everyday is the same. Put on my happy face and pretend all is well. I do this mostly for my sons but I am going to crack. People tell me to "date" and figured that will fix it. I feel sooo lost. No family near me, but they say to call anytime( as do friends). But I won't. I do not want to bother anyone. I am 47 and fee like I am 77. No one really understands....Now I am trying to figure out the fuse box, the snow blower, the taxes, college apps and aid. Sometimes I feel like I cannot handle it all. I am not overly religious, but I pray something will change They say, "Do not worry , it will get better" and they leave to their wonderful lives. When will it get better?