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I was in the store and came around the corner only to be in a isle filled with Christmas decorations and gifts. I really don't want to do anything for Christmas no tree, no wraping gifts nada.. Only a few gifts for my son and gift for my young great neices and nephews. Seeing those trees and bulbs hit me like a brick panic and deep sadness hit me.
The santa gig is up for my son who is gong to be 13 but he still wants to do the whole schbang I dont want to see it, deal with the music, try to get through stores past razzeled shoppers. In the future I had planned on doing trips over the holidays to different places but my 82yo mom does the Christmas Eve thing and expects us to be there. I do not even want to do my yearly baking or jerkey making food and booze baskets for my 2 nieces and my brother.
Any one else having this problem, any tips... I honestly don't see me putting on a happy face and just fighting to get through it. I have not been big on tree and stuff since my dad and grandma died anyhow but with a young son would do the magic for him. It was so fun sitting on the floor after he went to bed and my hubby and I would eat cookies and put thing together and talk about anything and joke about getting a hr or two sleep since the boy would be up early. THere is no more HO HO HO left n me....