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     I just joined this site today, so this is my first post. I noticed that others often post their story, so here's mine. My husband passed away 33 days ago, from lung cancer. We were just short of 25 years together. Even though we knew the statistics, his death felt very sudden just the same.

     He was diagnosed in January 2011 with stage 4 lung cancer, when we thought he had pneumonia and he finally went to the doctor. At that time, they were guessing he would only have a few months. After chemo, his disease apparently went into remission, and we had a wonderful, happy, mostly healthy 9 months together, for which we were very grateful. His disease returned with a vengeance in April, two different chemos didn't work, and the cancer spread to bones and everywhere.

     Three weeks before he passed, we were still able to go to the store on a food date, slowly but we did it. Then things snowballed--he was served by home hospice for all of 10 hours before he died, unable to get out of bed for only four hours. I seriously believe that he decided that if getting better for awhile was impossible, he would just check out.

     I'm trying hard to be grateful, for those 9 months, for 24 years with a wonderful man. I can see so many of you were not blessed with that. Everyday I read more tragic stories in the newspaper. But I am so darn sad. 

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Comment by shayne on July 31, 2012 at 9:37am

Hi Waeaverwoman

I am so sorry for the loss of your husband and understand the trying to be grateful thing. I also lost my husband Tim 35 months ago to lung cancer and NOT a day goes by that I don't miss him even more.

I'm not online often as I work strange hours plus sometimes the comments make me more upset; but hear to listen anytime you may need.

Shayne

Comment by Lynne on July 29, 2012 at 4:36pm

Always difficult to "welcome" someone here, since the reason we're all here is so incredibly sad.  That being said, however, we do welcome you and are so very sorry for your loss.  I lost my husband suddenly and unexpectedly on March 27th - a massive heart attack, with no prior symptoms or diagnosis - and no chance to say good-bye or anything else for that matter.  We would have been married for 41 years in June.  I know what you mean about the struggle between being grateful for what we had and just feeling "so darn sad"...it's up and down for me and I have periods of both and just try to roll with it - don't know what else to do.  I've joined a grief support group that's offered through our local hospice and it seems somewhat helpful.  Anyway, I wish you all the best and I think you'll find much support, encouragement and understanding on here.  Lynne

Comment by Sherbear on July 28, 2012 at 10:50am

So sorry for your loss. I was maried for 26 years. It seems like a life time.

Take care of yourself. Pace yourself.

 

(((Hugs))) to you.

Comment by Barbie Doll on July 28, 2012 at 1:51am

WeaverWoman,I am soooo sad for you too!  33 days out you just have to be crazy with grief and in total shock right not.  I lost my husband to cancer 7 months ago & I am just starting to come out of the shock stage.  I also lost my sister to lung cancer 4 years ago & she lived 15 months after her diagnosis but she never had the healthy stage your husband had.  All you can do is take it one day at a time.  Be sure to lean on your friends and family and your new family here for love and support.  We are all in the same damaged boat and we feel your pain and care for you and your loss.  My suggestion is to try to find a grief therapy group in the next few weeks as that helped me so much.  ((((((Hugs)))))))))

Comment by LaurieR on July 28, 2012 at 1:45am

I am sorry for your loss Weaverwomean.  We all are here because we lost our loves.  We have all been through so many emotions.  Grateful is a very tough emotion right now for me and I am almost 4 months from loosing my husband.  Believe that everyone here believes in you and are ready to support you through this journey.  Try and be very gentle with yourself. 

Comment by Lisa (lost) Lamb on July 27, 2012 at 11:20pm

I'm so sorry for your loss Weaverwoman, I also lost my husband to lung cancer.  He was 48 when he passed on May 14 2011. We found out Feb. 28th and he was gone in May. No amount of time prepares you for any of that. I'm glad you found this wonderful community because it helped me so much. It's still one day at a time but it has gotten a little easier to make it through the day. (((Hugs)))

Comment by AEDforever (Ali) on July 27, 2012 at 7:04pm

So sorry for your loss weaverwoman. glad you are here. of course you are sad. you've lost your love, and so much more. don't think you have to be "strong" or "grateful" or anything. allow yourself to grieve.  We all have different stories, but we all feel the same pain. So as Mari would say "We Get It".  Hope you find some comfort here and that this is a place you find you can express whatever you are feeling. It does help, because others that have not lost a spouse/partner really cannot relate to the experience you are having.  We are here for you.

Comment by bj628(Bonnie) on July 27, 2012 at 4:41pm

Welcome WeaverWoman,  I am glad you found us here. There is so much compassion and empathy. We each have our pain, and going thru grief. My husband and love of 20 yrs. was diagnosed with melanoma 7 yrs ago. The surgeon thought they got it all.. Well it cam back with a vengenance he was diagnosed 4/27/11 and passed on 6/28/11.. Never coming home after being admitted on 4/27. I am happy for the 20 years.. and the bonus of the 7 ... but we all sure wanted More... trying to remember the happy times, the funny memories. and getting through each "first" 

Know we are here for you, by e mail and chat is a wonderful place to get to know and make friends

Comment by Lisa ( Marielee) on July 27, 2012 at 2:39pm

So hard to lose the love of your life - we know here! So glad you found this site though,it has been a blessing and healing support to me and many other's.  Feel free to message anyone, try joining chat and reading blogs. Slowly you will feel a little bit stronger.  Blessings and (((HUGS))) as you travel today and this journey. Lisa

Comment by Ccdague on July 27, 2012 at 6:18am
So very sorry for the lss of your life's love. We hold each other up here and no one judges.....we all understand this pain. I lost my mate of 38 years on march 22........ I am sure that your sweetheart was welcomed warmly into the company of all the good people we love.

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