How has it already been six months?! Just yesterday we were standing together, shoulder to shoulder, us against the world, ready to conquer it as part of our life adventure. Yet at the same time, it feels like a lifetime since I last touched you.
I don't feel courageous today, my Prince. I'm lost without you. So alone in this chapter. Surrounded by love but unable to embrace it. Despite their efforts, our wonderful friends and family, even God Himself, cannot fill the void where you fit.
You woke up a strength in me that I never knew I had, and I have had to lean on it heavily this year. How long will it last before it gives out? I've said it before and I'll say it again: I didn't deserve you. I've been flung into a solo mission I don't want to play, without the proper equipment and stats needed to win the battle. I want to reset the level. If only it were that simple.
And yet, because of that strength you helped me find, I know I'll keep going. God is right here, holding me up and walking before me; slaying those monsters who would destroy me with one blow. Every day that I manage to get out of bed is a victory. Faith keeps me going. I know that I know that I know that I know. God has already been where I'm going. He has amazing things planned for me. Even without you playing at my side.
Until I see you again, handsome...