I've been having a very hard time sense my father passed away 9 days ago. I don't sleep more then 2 hours a night and even then it's on and off. This got me to wondering if all of our grief gets compounded together. My Husband KC passed away May 14th 2011 and sense that day I've also lost my brother in law, 2 aunts, 4 good friends, my best friend of 45 years and now my Father in less then 3 years.
Do we some how departmentalize them all differently without even knowing it, or do they all just pill up until we break? I do know that by having my Dad move in with me into hospice, the same room, bed and everything as my husband it impacted me more then I could of ever imagined. But I also know if I had it to do over again I wouldn't change a thing. The time I spent with my dad was worth every tear and sleepless night I'll ever have. I'm just wondering when and how I'll ever begin to heal when I move from one into another so fast.
I know I'll never get over my Husband or my Father. They were and will always be the cornerstone of my life. Even though they are no longer with me the lessons, love and faith they instilled in me will always be here. I will proudly do my best to pass all of it down to my children and grand children. The one think I hope with all my heart is to make them both proud of me because I know they are still with me. Sending my love to all.