I finally found "IT"

A few days after John was in the VA hospital.. ( after having a good part of his spine removed & replaced with a titanium rod.) The VA had transferred him there.. hoping to get some of the melanoma) I stayed with him pretty much 24/7  running home and tryng to take care of his business.  He knew I was always near)  He said Bonnie, I said what honey. he said "do you see it?"  I said see what? He described the most beautiful orange light ... I said No, I don't see it, he said it is sooo beautiful and kept saying can't you see it.  So I said Oh, I see a beautiful "blue one". He continued to explain the orange light to me.   He lived about 6 or 7 weeks after , and did bring up the orange light a few times.

I have been looking all over.. found a few on the internet.. but just not quite.. Today while shopping I had to go through a couple departments and glanced down an aisle.... They had 3 styles of  Salt Crystal Lamps"  one was an orange globe, the other almost shaped like the lava lamps... and then this one.. it is a Wire basket filled with mined & chipped crystals from the Himalayan Mountain, shades of white, peach and orange, it is Full of the crystals, and it plugs in with a dimmer switch.  It was normally almost $50.00 but they were on sale for $20.00 plus a coupon for another 10% off..  I looked at all 3.. and was totally drawn to the basket with the crystals.. It is now sittin on the top of my TV center with the favorite photo of him, and his Urn. It is stil light outside, and not sure of the settings on the switch, but I know I feel somehow "peaceful" with a memory and description of the beauty he was sharing with me.

I do have a bowl on the dresser in the bed room, with some orange and clear crystals and a little glass heart jar I filled with small orange irridesecnt beads.

 I have thinking of changing some colors in the bedroom and Family Room, I don't think oranges would have been my first choice of colors, but now.. orange as a compliment color has so much meaning to me.

tHE  tattoo on my arm has an orange glow behind the cross  with the banners (wide ribbons) with our names, and a touch of blue shading in the banners.