i'm very lonely. My husband passed May 1, 2014. He was on facebook nd had many followers so i had to let them know. At first I got iot of support and stayed on there. I found there were some people that didn't have the same christian beliefs I had and some were trying to indoctrinate me into weird things.There were also things i found out about my husbands private life that were upsetting to me. I started my own facebook page, but i was kind of forced into it. While i was talking to friends of my husbands one man kept writing me and i would return w/a response. I wasn't out looking to meet anyone but i developed a crush that became an obsession. He unfriended me on my husbands site b/c he wanted me to get my own site. I didn't know that and it was painful. We continued to talk on the new site until i even thought of traveling to england to see him. He has chronic pain issues and sleeps long naps in the afternoon, sometimes into the night and i don't get to tlk to him. I have been very trapped by this relationship, with lots of ups and downs. we would talk on the phone and i would feel good but on the days he didn't come on i was very down. I have no other life nd don't leave my house much, i'm afraid to go out as little as possible. recently things haven't been very consistant w/this man, and in spite of losing other frienships w/people I can't seem to let him go. He keeps his phone off the hook most of the time. I'm sick today physically and mentally. I go to counseling every week in case u want to suggest that and take medications.I am very depressed.