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I guess we never know what is around the corner.. no crystal ball.. All I can say is I never dreamed in a million worlds my life would end up like this.
with the financial mess from husbands business. I have filed bankruptcy.. well have half more to pay, before they file..
I do have a man who had come to a yard sale last year, interested in buying more of John's stuff for "projects" when he retired. hoping to make enough to pay the balance to the attorney.
My daughter & son in law are moving back to Eastern, Washington. My grandson is staying here for a bit. he is 19...
leaves early in am and gets home at 6pm, eats dinner, and goes to his room.
I am picking thru this financial mess.. and making the first steps.. This was an extremely hard decision, I had worked up until 9 yrs ago when stroke hit, and I had to go on disability.
I will be going to a 6 week grief support group starting in Sept. I feel the only things keeping me going at this point are my dogs..
My daughter & sil want me to move to Eastern, WA at some point.. but I have to much to do here, before I can even think about that. I also want to make sure they are stable over there before I make any decisions.
To say I hate what is going on is an understatement.. I feel like I am in a 20 ft hole and trying to dig out, but times I just wish I could stay in the hole.. and not bother.. but the dogs need to be fed and looked after.
Hope.... where are you? I can ask.."why me?" but then I can ask "why NOT me?"
I am tired of being a survivor.. I am tired of "fighting life" I guess I am just plain....tired.
My poor flower bed is a mess with weeds. hoping fall and winter kills them off enough where I can dig it up, or get my grandson to dig the whole thing out.. and start over in spring. I will cove it with black plastic once I can get it dug up. It wa soo pretty 2 years ago , when John and I made it.