Here I am. 35. Lost and will be going on a new path.
Toby has been gone for 17 months now as of the 7th of December. Life seems to be rolling on ans I can't seem to keep rolling with it. I keep getting get caught up in the wheels.
I clog the wheels of life because I can't seem to move as fast.
What? Stop it it!
I can't process as fast.
I just can't move as fast without him!
I want to keep moving forward but your speed is too fast. I cant compute. I can't keep my footing.
What? I'm losing my job?
WHo do I talk to about this?
Who do I go home to and discuss this about?
I don't want to do?
He's not here and he'd have the answers.
I don't know what to do without him? I have to make a deicsion now.... and he's not here.
I hyperventilate..... He's not here. What do I do?
What do I want to do?
It's just me now.
Where do I go?
I'm faced with the world now.