I had a random thought this morning - I'm not who I was 6 1/2 months ago. My husband's death has turned me into a different person, one that I don't know and don't want to be. His passing set off a chain of events that was impossible to anticipate. I read a quote on the internet a few minutes ago that stated "Death changes nothing". No, death changes everything. It has forced me into thinking differently, feeling differently, living a different life, having a different future, making different decisions, knowing and dealing with different people, having a different relationship with some longtime friends and family, and perhaps leaving my home and this state. Death has changed ME.