It will be 2 years August 16 that I found my husband dead in our car, he was waiting for me while I had my Mom at an appointment. I came out and he was slumped over steering wheel, I thought he was sleeping, but when I touched him, I knew. The EMT worked on him for over 15 minutes, then transferred him to the hospital where a Doctor pronounced him dead. The rest of that afternoon is still a blur, and the days following. The past couple of months I am more sad and depressed, our 30th anniversary was July 4. Wes was the kindest, loving, caring, sensitive, funny man I have ever met. It was the second marriage for both us, we had both been cheated on by our ex spouses. My friend tells me, she is tired of my sadness and drama, she misses the “old” person I was, happy, and funny and loving. That person died with Wes, which no one seems to understand. I lost my sister a year before Wes and my Mom this March. My daughter lives in Florida, I feel there is no one to turn to. I just want my husband, and as crazy as it sounds I am just now believeing and knowing he is not coming back. I can’t concentrate enough to read, I watch tv, and all of a sudden I have no idea of what is going on. I miss him so much my heart hurts, everyday, all day. I have no motivation, nor do I want any, I stay at home, it’s the only comfort I feel. Thank you for listening. To all others who are struggling and have pain and heartache I so understand and pray for all.