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Monday morning will bring changes for me yet again. I will be moving out of my parents house and in with my sister. Still not where I want to be, but I guess it feels like one step closer to being on my own again. Will be working again soon and my goal is to be in my own place within a month or so. I still just can't believe this is happening. Is this really my life now? I guess so. It sucks. Everything sucks. I'm tired of it all. I just want to be done with this somehow. I guess I never will be though. I've gotten pretty good at hiding my true emotions, I just hate breaking down in front of people. I just miss him so much. There is nobody on this earth who totally understands me anymore. That is a very lonely feeling. I keep thinking about how I just want a hug from him, then I will be ok again for a while. I miss that so much, that way he had of making me feel like everything will be ok. Well it's not ok, and I'm not sure it ever will be. I guess I'm just a little angry at life today.... Thanks for listening.