So, just to see what's (who's) "out" there I did a profile on match.com. I am going to preface this by saying that I am not terribly serious about this. My original profile was pretty blunt and straight forward "Widowed mother of four" was what it read. Okay, maybe it was a little better than that, but not much.
I was doing a custom search.....looking at profiles of widowers. I mean, it makes sense to me to start out with someone that has had a similar experience and more importantly will UNDERSTAND that I am not single by choice but by circumstance. Then it happened. I came across a man that is my age, really good looking, with many of the same interests that I have. He lives less than 30 minutes away from me. He was new on the site. I read his profile and went "wow" this seems too good to be real! His heading read "I need a new beginning" Yeah, me too......
Not being a paying member (remember, I was not that serious about this venture!) the only thing I could do was "wink", hokey, I know. But I looked at this guy (did I mention he was HOT?) and thought hmmm......should I? Well, if you recall from earlier my profile was certainly not anything special and really more like a scare you away kind of thing! So, I went in and re-did my profile. I added pictures, and re-wrote the "about me" section. While I didn't lie (really, I didn't!) I might have "tailored" it to fit with this guys profile. The last thing I did that night before I went to bed was send a "wink". This guy was good looking...I know, I know, I've already said that...and I never imagined that I would get a response. I mean, widowed mother of four, what every man wants, right? The next morning, once I got the kids off to school I checked...and he winked BACK! I was astounded, but now I had a decision to make....I couldn't communicate any further with this guy unless I actually paid for a membership...ugggh...I really wasn't that serious...but.......okay. So, I paid for the membership and sent him an email. Know what? He closed down his account that day! So, that email cost me $45, and he never got it, LOL! Even though his account has been closed, I can somehow still get into his profile from my cellphone. I think I have the profile memorized at this point. Heck, there's even a picture of him standing in front of a house with a very unique front door, his house? I don't know, but if it is, it wouldn't be that hard to pick out. I'm scaring myself......Stalkerish, right?
I don't know if he would have been Mr. Right, or if he would have even been truly interested, but I will say that it has been fun to imagine the possibilities over the last 2 weeks. It has given me a small amount of hope that there is a future out there for me that includes the love of another man. I hope that man finds me, though I doubt it will be on match.com!