My bonus life. Don't get me wrong. I certainly did expect to grow old together with Cindy. That being said we had an amazing life together. We traveled the world together. Life was kind to us. So many experiences and opportunities. We had a great marriage and a great friendship.
In so many ways I feel like I have lived a complete life. So I keep on thinking that this is my bonus life. I do hope that I will be there for my children. But in so many ways I feel that life at this point is gravy. I still struggle. Still have my challenging days and weeks. Everything seemed so predictable before.
I do trust in the future most of the time. Have no idea whatsoever what it will be. It's hard to figure things out.