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My Dilemma ~ I don’t know if I should go…. I apologize in advance if this seems trivial … but this was part of the life we shared together.
My Sweetie loved Rock & Roll music. It was because of him that we went to concerts such as Ozzy, Motley Crue, Iron Maiden, Kiss and more.
The Tour of KISS and Motley Crue will be here tomorrow.
My Sweetie and I saw Crue Fest 1 & 2 together, he had seen other Motley Crue shows before “us”. Crue Fest 3 came here approx. 1 ½ mths after my Sweetie passed. I did not go, too soon.
As for KISS, this was a road trip for us to Phoenix. It was an awesome show! It was a great trip for us and as it would turn out, that would be our last road trip together. My sweetie passed on 8 months after we saw KISS in Phoenix. This was our first KISS show for both of us. That made it that more special for me… it was “our” concert. I put together a scrapbook of this trip / concert for my Sweetie, he loved it so much.
I think I want to go as a tribute to my Sweetie and the life we shared together … but then on the flipside of that… I think that I should not go and just treasure the memory of “us”, happy at the shows of Motley Crue and KISS that we did attend. I have not been to a concert since my Sweetie passed, so going back to the Pavilion will be hard … I’m not sure how I will handle it (I’m at 1 yr 3 mths).
When we went to concerts, we made a “thing” of it, we would stop at a Subway or make sandwiches, have extra bottled water (just in case for other people) and our drinks (beer for him and Pepsi for me). At the end of the concert, the line to get out would be super long… so we would get back to the car…. take out our lawn chairs, turn on the radio and we would have a “picnic”. We would hang out for about an hour, waiting for the traffic to lessen. The thought of doing all that without my Sweetie ... just not the same.
If I decide to go to this concert, my sister has agreed to go with me... but I’m not sure how she will be if it becomes too emotional for me (family not very supportive).
As I write this … it makes me more sad because I have been having a difficult time these last couple of weeks. I’ve been missing my Sweetie a lot lately and lonely for him as well. This journey is hard enough without all the extras. I was hoping this would help me figure this out…but I still do not know.
ILM ~ WB ~ MLA.