Well, it's been the first year already and I just can't hardly believe it!! It still seems like yesterday or that Glenn will walk thru the door any time now. I sat down a week or so ago and wrote down the names of the months and anything the happened in those months. Well, June, he died. July, Aug, and Sept were all blank. Oct only had that I celebrated his birthday on the 26th. On Nov 3rd I celebrated our 30th wedding anniversary. Dec I flew to FL to celebrate Christmas with my folks. Jan, Feb, March were all blank too. So to you new at widowhood (like me) IT TAKES TIME!! LOTS of it. May, July and probably Aug will all be blank too. I'm doing lots of little things around the house but nothing big. Be kind to yourselves!! Do the things YOU want to do. Take YOUR time and don't let anyone push you. You will begin small and take baby steps until you can take bigger steps. Some days I do nothing but sit, other days I do alot. Tomorrow I am going scuba diving with a group I do not know, to a lake I have never dived. I need to get my skills back as it is really something I love and will do lots of in the future. Glenn and I loved diving!! This is someplace we wanted to dive together so I am doing it for us both! My thoughts and prayers are with you all. The Sucks to be here club. Deb