Exactly 3 months ago today my world was shattered and I lost my only true love and my soulmate. People keep telling me the heartache I feel will become more and more bearable. Right now I don't see how that will ever be possible. Even after 50 years together (over 47 married) we were looking forward to the future. We still had so many plans and dreams. Despite his illness (he was on dialysis) we had learned to navigate around his treatments and we still managed to travel and do the things we loved to do. We truly enjoyed being with one another and I miss that so much! I am a true introvert so he was usually enough for me. Even when I would venture out with friends he was always sitting up waiting for my return. LOL...my friends would always lovingly comment about this ritual of his....as I'd walk to the door there he would be with outstretched arms and a smile. So many precious memories. One of the members cited the song, 'Jealous of the Angels"....that song beautifully summarizes my feelings. My friends and family have been great.....but nothing will ever take away the emptiness I feel. I realize that void will only be filled when we are together once again. Until then I will cherish the love we had and the precious times we had together.