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My voice is back.
I have always been a singer. I can't remember a time I didn't sing. I have sung with community choruses, opera choruses, church choirs and Synagogue choirs. I sing in Italian, French, Latin, Hebrew and Russian. And English if I have to. I guess I'm a professional because I have been paid. I have had solos by Puccini, Brahams and Andrew Lloyd Weber. I have sung Amazing Grace at more memorial services than I care to remember.
The last time I sang was in in the church choir, sitting next to my Jonathan, on Sunday May 2, 2010. Jonathan died later that afternoon and I could no longer sing. Our choir director pled with me to come back, yet I could not sit there without Jonathan. I lost my voice. My throat tightened up at the thought of trying to sing.
The years passed and my voice remained lost. I moved and after a year in my new home I started back to church. A different church. I am now two years into this lourney and I found I could sing the hymns. Sort of. Each week I went back I got better. I finally approached the choir director about singing. He was so encouraging.
Last night was my first practice and we did calypso music. It was magnificently upbeat and cheerful. We danced as we sang and joy filled my heart. I'm looking forward to singing this Sunday and all the Sundays after. My voice is back. I'm beginning to heal.
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Comment by Lori on September 28, 2012 at 1:06am -
so were my husbands, mine is in worship. i'll be praying for you. I've heard and believe that singing is praying twice!
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Comment by Susan J on September 28, 2012 at 12:43am -
An update: It has been a month now and, while my technical skill is not where it was, I have far more joy and depth in my music now. I have my first solo coming up Oct 7. It's only one line, but it is mine. My heart and soul is in my music.
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Comment by Lori on September 28, 2012 at 12:23am
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how wonderful, i too sang with my husband int he choir, he's voice was wonderful, mine belonged blended in the choir but i love music so, i was afraid i wouldn't be welcome after he died, i didn't have the talent he did, and getting through a service with out crying forget it. but i was encouraged to stay and now don't have to sit alone. love those people so much.
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Comment by Lisa ( Marielee) on August 30, 2012 at 9:49pm
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Great News Susan :) Joy feels good - BLessings and love as you "sing" forward in your new life- Lisa
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Comment by Joyce on August 30, 2012 at 9:21pm -
That's wonderful Susan, I'm happy for you!
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Comment by bj628(Bonnie) on August 30, 2012 at 3:46pm -
OH Susan, I am so Happy for you. ((((((((((((((Big Hugs))))))))))))))
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Comment by jean on August 30, 2012 at 3:31pm -
Thanks for sharing! I am so happy for you. We can and do heal. As hard as it is/was to believe.. we do heal. ((hugs))
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