Here I am 2 years later. the First year with this New lady in my life was amazing. then something happened I do not know what,
she seemed to be Pushing away from me.. locks herself in the bedroom , days , weeks at a time. My mom came to Visit. she did leave the room the entire week my mom was here. We had a tree fall into the house. she was in the room for over a month. apparently came out while I was at work.
now she is demanding. does not speak to me. leaves me Notes with $50 says Here is this weeks rent money... I made a huge mistake. I allowed her to have 2 kittens she wanted back in the summer.. here we are now Feb 2018 her and the cats have full control of the master bedroom and bathroom. Because I am alergic to cats.. I am now Living in my studio down in the basement... I dont know how to throw her out.. with her tossing me notes saying Renrt, and I keep texting her its not rent. Im afraid I may need to get a lawyer, and have her evicted.. I never knew the term until now. But she is 100% narcisstic. I dont even want to be in my own house anymore. No Ambition to work, or be here anymore, its almost 4 years since I lost my wife. and I still have to cry myself to sleep.
I just Randomly have crying outbursts and Dont know why..PBA? I went from Doing over 200 shows a Year to last Year I had 6.. this year Next month will be just 1... I just dont know what to do next.. so much on my mind.. the voices in my heard Fighting my sanity. After I get Rid of this young lady. I have decided I will only Date a Widow. and she MUST BE JEWISH.. that is Next to impossible to find in my age range.. Funny how at WV events I go to. I am Being hit on By woman in their 70's Im 56... my range is 4x4 52-60.. I hate sitting home and Crying my ass off.. not sleeping. I dont like the word, because I fly... But Depression is on its way of drowning me from being the true me. loving , caring, being silly, and hard working. I just dont care anymore..I still ask.. Why am I still here...