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I wanted to blog about how I feel tonight, watching the blue corn moon with all my fellow villagers and praying that somehow, somewhere, Rod was watching it too. The gamut of emotions I have run through this Grief has been from one extreme to the other ... anger, fear, sorrow, devastation, loneliness, longing, hopelessness... well, you have all befriended each and every one of them, so I don't need to go on. But the feeling I have tonight is beyond loneliness, beyond emptiness, it's more like...nothingness. I feel like I have nothing and I am nothing and all there will ever be is nothing. And how do you write about nothing?? It's ... nothing. There cannot be words to describe something nonexistent, right??
So I guess the blog I wanted to write doesn't exist.