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Comment by AEDforever (Ali) on September 5, 2012 at 8:38pm

((((((((Carolynne)))))))))...sometimes there just are no words to express that feeling. I've felt it a lot lately too. Don't know what to say, except - I am right here in it with you.

Comment by Poppys Girl on September 5, 2012 at 12:45pm

Hugs  to you, The ugly nothingness creeps up and when it does I start praying. God Bless you and all others on this unwanted journey.

Poppy's girl

Comment by kimkirt (KK) on September 3, 2012 at 9:12am

We try and fill the void but nothing works. The nothingness cannot be filled or covered up. Hugs my friend. I guess we just learn to live with it. Maybe. Hopefully.

Comment by Lauralee on September 2, 2012 at 9:38am

Carolynne - something compelled me to read this blog as tears are streaming down my face and I am feeling exactly what you have written.  I am feeling so full of nothingness - and you have described the feeling exactly as it is.  It will be six months tomorrow since I found Robert dead beside me.  All this week I thought he was sending me signs that everything was ok - we always liked to pick up coins in the street if they were on the heads for good luck.  I started finding dimes everywhere I went this week and they were all heads up.  It made me smile to remember this little fun thing that we used to do and I hadn't thought about it since his death.  Then yesterday, I had only my second dream about Robert.  I could see him writing a note and only saw him as he was walking away from me.  I went over to the note and only read the first line before the phone rang and woke me up.  It said, "to know me is to love me".  It is only 9:30 in the morning and with nothing to do the rest of the day, I guess it is going to be very long and sad day leading up to more long and sad alone days.  Sorry for depressing comment - just had to vent.  Tears still streaming but I sincerely do hope for better, less sad days for all of us and for nothingness to turn to something eventually.     

Comment by bj628(Bonnie) on September 1, 2012 at 11:18am

(((((((((((((((((Carolynne)))))))))))))))))  I think many of us feel this way.. Just numb and dubfounded.  The world keeps moving  nothing stops, but soetimes we are looking at it in a complete and total fog.  Dreams and plans crushed, not enough glue in the world to get all the pieces back together.  I guess some how we manage to pick u a piece here and there, and make some kind of decision.  The pieces will never be in the same order.. but maybe, just maybe we can make a mosaic..

 

Comment by CharliesGirl on September 1, 2012 at 10:21am

Carolynne,

Not long ago when writing to a fellow widow/widower I used the word "nothingness" to describe how I feel. I thought I had invented it. You've descibed it very well.

Julie

Comment by Joyce on September 1, 2012 at 9:27am

Hugs, Carolynne!

Comment by janet on September 1, 2012 at 8:55am

(((((Carolynne))))).

 

Comment by tom restored on September 1, 2012 at 12:58am

((((((Carolynne))))))  This is just like the one I gave you at Camp.  Can you feel it?  I hope so.  Prayers and blessings to you right now.  Tom