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I was at Disney today, walking around with a friend of mine, when I saw a friend of theirs working. He didnt see me but I sure saw him. I blushed and simply looked at him...I felt like a teenager! I didnt have the guts to say hello but i seemed content just to look at him. My friend noticed and said nothing. When we walked away I mumbled "I dont have a shot with him." With stern face my friend says "oh yes you do. If you set your mind to it." I merely shrugged. I'm overweight, I am not attractive at all, I thought. Then I stopped...what the hell?! I'm almost 5 months out! what was I doing? The reaction of seeing that man felt normal, something I hadnt felt in a long time but it is too soon. It's like i should look but not touch. im so confused right now. I'm a woman, damnit, and not a walking dead but why do I feel this is wrong. "Sigh."