The past couple of weeks I feel so alone. I have found myself curled up in my bed way more than I like.
It all started when I made the appointment to sit down with Patrick's doctors. I needed to talk to them, to ask the question I had. I just didn't want to go back to the hospital.
That was yesterday. I got some questions answered, but for every answer I got, I had 2 more. I now feel like I have more questions than before I went.
I have great friends that have been so good to me the last 9 months, but I just feel like I'm so alone now. They're still supportive as far as Patrick dying, but they're not as supportive with my hiring the lawyer.
Seems like everyone has an opinion on it now. I do know that it may not go anywhere, more or less that's what I'm expecting, but I needed to pursue it for answers. Not just answers, but I feel like I owe it to Patrick.
Plus doing some research last night, I found out that the recall initially started in December 2011, then March, and finally they recalled all the lots in June. All for the same thing.
I need to know if this is what killed my husband. I was ok not knowing what happened, but now knowing all I do, I need to know for sure. I need to feel like I looked into everything before I officially give up and accept that we don't know.
I just wish my friends and family could be a little more supportive.