Before I was married I traveled to many places, usually traveling alone by choice. I wanted to be able to experience the adventures by myself, unhindered by a friend or companion. Able to do whatever I wanted on the fly. Able to meet people and to spend time with them along the way. Cindy was the same way, as much as was safe. We both were very strong and somewhat self-sufficient individuals. When we became a couple it was amazing. We traveled the world together and both thrived on spontaneity. Never bored and usually amused by so much in life.
We had that marriage that people talked about in a good way. It wasn’t as perfect as some people might have thought, but it was as good as it gets! We loved each other, we were best of friends and had common goals and values. We still remained two strong individuals, but were such a great couple. I didn’t try to tell her what to do, nor did she to me.
I have tried dating and was in one 7 month long relationship. Overall, things have gone well in that department. I’m grateful that it is easy to at least meet women. But now I’m back to traveling this journey alone. Don’t get me wrong, I have two wonderful children that I do many things with. Also, I get to spend time with my family and Cindy’s family. I think that I need to discover this “new life” solo for now. Need my time. I’m grateful that I don’t feel lonely anymore.
In some ways, I feel like I’m back on one of my unknown adventures, choosing to travel solo. Discovering things along the way and being somewhat spontaneous at times. I am curious to know if there will ever be a significant long-term relationship in my life again. Sometimes I do have my doubts, which isn’t a bad thing.