Somedays It’s Hard Being The Survivor

Most days I am able to function
Go through with my routine

Get up and go and live life
Just like you did
Just like we did

Find the beauty in life
The beauty of each day
And be thankful for all God has created

I still think of you everyday
I still miss you
I still wish you were here

I still experience new situations and wonder what you would think about them
Would you like this movie
Would you like this city
Would you enjoy this as much as I do

Then I have days where it is difficult facing the day with out you

Days where it is hard to be the survivor
Days where I do not want to be doing this alone
Days where I am angry because you are not here

Mad that you got in the car accident
Mad that that leaves me here to fix everything on my own

To do everything without you
When you are supposed to be here
Living life with me
Growing in Christ together
Building a life together

Days like today it is difficult being here with out you

Days where I feel so inadequate
Where I just need a hug from you
Or one of your words of encouragement
To help build me up
And let me know that you support me
And love me

Some people expect life to be easier now that you’ve been gone 31 months
That I shouldn’t miss you
That I shouldn’t love you
That I should just forget about you

Some days it’s hard being the survivor but I wouldn’t change our time together for anything

I miss you

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