I am trying. So very hard. This is not the life I wanted, not the way it was supposed to be. I had a loving husband, two beautiful boys and one on the way when cancer came and stole my life, my children's daddy, my life partner. I've been told to keep things as normal as possible for the kids but nothing about this is normal. Normal is daddy making them breakfast in the morning, normal is daddy tucking them into bed with me. I am trying so hard to create a new normal but I hate it, hate how it feels. November 8 will be two years and I am still fighting to fit into this new normal. I talked to a divorced friend about single parenthood the other day and she tried to help when I asked her how she made it look so easy, but she said it was different. "I'm a single parent Cath, you're an only parent, those two words make a world of difference. I still have someone to blame if the kids don't turn out ok." Please someone tell me this gets easier???