My roses October 26th 2013
I was feeling very low today and yesterday evening. So much to do and missing Wes so much. I was still prowling round the house at 2.45 am. So much happening for my widowed friends here and for all of you over in USA and Canada. Decided I had enough. I had to speak out. We are invisible, our needs are not being met. Last week there was a radio program about the wealthy giving money to various projects (like universities) $65 million. So I rang this major radio station in Perth capital of W. Australia. I told them about the widows I know here and overseas.The list of sufferings they were going through (financial, step children and law suits, our sorrow the verbal assaults etc). The host of the program listened AND HE GOT IT!! I told him you got it.. and without being a widower. He said it was the way I explained it.
He was compassionate and I said all this money be donated but nothing done for widows. He was shocked by the verbal assaults we undergo. He said that I should ask my friends to ring up as well, and for me to also talk with his colleagues who are hosting programs on different days. We must tell the truth and get it out on air. When I put the phone down a lady called in to verify re her own mother, the suffering she had gone through.
Basically, I am appalled at what I have read happening to folks on this website, and a young woman in Cyprus etc.
So maybe we can get strong enough to do what he said. Because we are not going to change anything it seems by talking to our 'friends and relatives'. But maybe the fact that is put on radio makes them think again. Either it is the power of US ACTUALLY DARING TO DO IT. Or the power that comes from a major radio station actually broadcasting it. I feel really committed to go on radio again. I hope that some more of us will feel we can speak aloud. I will probably go with another woman I know and speak at another church about the needs of widows. It is written that we should help widows orphans and that the Jewish people have been taking this on board since ancient times. So when I have finished doing this and a book I will definitely have had enough. I long for my Wes and want to see him with all of my heart. I do not have anything really to live for. That does not mean I will take my life but I have had too much trauma in my life - and Wes restored my losses - but now he is a loss.