Sunset

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Comment by Joyce on July 9, 2012 at 8:15pm

Oh Sam, the picture is beautiful and I so understand your crying and I don't want a new normal either.  Hugs!

Comment by Kerryn on July 9, 2012 at 5:30pm

Sam, 

Beautiful photo.  I'm with you!  I don't want a new normal, I want my life and husband back & my kids to no longer have to look into the spectator stands searching for their dad before remembering he won't be there.  

The 4th was hard for us too. It was Dave's Christmas and was a major thing for the kids.  We hadn't missed the fireworks on the boat once in the 16 yrs we'd been together and usually did an elaborate grill out before everyone headed out.  We still watch the fireworks on the water in the boat - we still have the grill out, but have modified to easier stuff - burgers and dogs - not so elaborate, and for the 2nd year, I watched the fireworks as I cried and held my kids.  Someday maybe, it won't hurt so much. 

Comment by Jody on July 7, 2012 at 6:10pm

Stunning photo. Through all of this sadness there is still beauty in the world. Hopefully one day we will begin to see it again.

Comment by AEDforever (Ali) on July 7, 2012 at 1:00am

Sam,  I think you and your camera need to take more walks together, more bench crys, more beautiful sunsets and photos.  Understand the sadness. It can't be rushed.  ((hugs))

Comment by celestia (Suzanne) on July 6, 2012 at 7:15pm

beautiful!

Comment by LaurieR on July 5, 2012 at 7:40pm

Beautiful picture.  I found these last couple day terrible.  Our new normal are going to take some serious getting use too.  My heartaches for you and your babes

Comment by Cristina on July 5, 2012 at 5:24pm

Sam, What a gorgeous shot, what a sad and totally understandable post.  I'm with you, girl, all I want is my Billie back, healthy, and all our promise for the future fulfilled.  I cannot wrap my mind around happiness, I cannot find optimism, I cannot hardly even care about the future.  No one can ever reach into my heart like Billie did, no one will ever make my heart soar like he did.  He was exactly the man I had always been searching for, he was even better than the man of my dreams.  I cannot fathom that he was ripped away from me, so soon after we had finally found each other.  God's gonna have some explaining to do, when I get to the other side.  I already knew life wasn't fair, but this just took the cake.  I am glad for you that this gorgeous sunset met your sorrow.  I think your Patrick was sitting right beside you there on that bench, with a celestial paintbrush just for you.  Wishing you peace, my friend.  I so understand.

Comment by ginadf on July 5, 2012 at 4:54pm

Such a beautiful shot Sam.   And even more special that it was taken by you.  You should take a special one every day and post them here with your thought for the day lol!!!!!  just an idea.  For me, any holiday is just another day for me to miss my husband more.  its more than 2 yrs since Sal died,  and nothings changed.  The memories still hurt,  and missing him just gets deeper.   I guess, in time ill make some new memories with my daughters and grandsons, and maybe looking back wont hurt so much.

Comment by chez2all on July 5, 2012 at 4:24pm

Lovely photo Sam...time off with loved ones...we used to look forward to it so much, often taking it for granted...now so precious.  Thinking of you