There are countless issues around the passing of someone you love. There are also countless emotions.
I wrote about all of the experiences I faced and have uploaded my audio book which may help you. The podcasts are not too long and I will be adding more in the next few weeks.
This is the link http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCC-dTXOuihBeh5bRr1VR5aA
My husband died just over a year ago. I hope hearing another person going through what I know you are feeling helps.