26 days since my John passed away. In the last week or so, I wake up and cry in bed everyday begging John to come back to me. I know it's impossible but I still wish everyday... Tonight I talk to my sister in law via Facebook messenger. We talked about John much and what he did. I told her stories about him that Melissa (Johns older sister) didn't know. She told me things about John too. We talked about our memories with John, how cheeky and sweet and annoy (sometimes) he was. This made us cry and smile. I sent Mel a picture of John while he's sleeping, Mel said she loved it and it made her cry. She said her daughter didn't want see her cry and she feel weak to cry. I told Mel that it's ok to cry, you can't be strong all the time. We cry because we love John, no other reason, and sure he knows that.
I talked to Mel and it made me feel heaps better. I loved it to have someone who knows John well and understand how it feels to loose him. Mel is such amazing sister in law (I call her sis or Mel btw). Tonight was 1st time my mom see me smile after John passed. She told me she loved it, and very happy to see my smile. Poor my mom, been worry so much about me. She loves John much too.
So my point is talking with others about ur husband or wife is amazing,. It helps you express ur love as well as know more memories others people had with him. Avoiding talking about our loved ones doesn't help at all. Some people think that they might remind us of our spouse, but the truth is, no passing minutes we don't think about them. So talk about our love, smile and laugh and cry with the memories, hold on to it and know that they will be always there, forever in our heart <3