So, last night was one of those nights, one of those times, where I just broke down into a deep sorrowful cry. It came out of nowhere. Maybe it was because I had things to do yesterday so I tried to be normal which is an understatement. Holding in your emotions to get through each and every day is rough, tough, and almost unbearable. It's so exhausting. So, at the end of the day when I could relax, I think it hit me. I usually cry throughout the day here and there, but yesterday I had things to do. I cried for a while on the floor of my bedroom. I cried out for my husband (not yelling, I am not a yeller or screamer).
It hurts so much that it is just so confusing. I don't know which way to turn or where to go in life. I'm so lost without my husband because he was my future.