I Love my Backyard. It's not very big, but it was perfect for us. Toby and I worked very hard to make it into a backyard oasis. We wanted a place that felt magical, warm, and inviting. It took us many years to bring the little neglect home we found in 2001 back to life. Every year it looks more and more beautiful and takes on a magical essences that some days is breathtaking.
We had no money when we were looking for our home. We didn't even know what we were doing! We were only 23 years old and buying our first home.Our first very rundown home! It was the best decision we ever made. Today, ironically, has been a very good investment for me now. I live in a wonderful neighborhood that has been revitalized and EVERYONE wants to live in my 'hood. We have hip bars, grocery stores, vintage stores, massage places, and cat specialty clinics that are a block away.
I probably won't ever sell my house, because I truly love it. Even though in this first year, it has been at times, indescribably painful without Toby's physical presence with me. But sometimes, when my brain is clear and I allow myself to feel/see.......Toby is here with me spiritually.
This year, actually right this second as I write this on my laptop, it breaks my heart that Toby isn't here with me tonight to enjoy a drink in our backyard. The warm breeze blowing. The hummingbirds making their yearly greetings as they suck down the sugar water. I miss him so much. I can't even believe i'm 35 days away from the 1 year mark. 365 days. D day.
This is what we, Toby and I looked like in 2013. The black cat I lost to a seizure in my arms 3 months after Toby passed. He was 16. Daytona, the dog I lost in January 2014 ,6 months to the day after Toby's passing. We didn't have any kids, so our rescue animals became our loving family. I know it's not for everyone, but we loved these little critters very much.
I still have Jade(the grey ball who is 16) and Furr-Ari who is the tan leopard.
Yup, yup, yup.... I'm horrible country song. Lost the husband, cat, & dog!
This is my new normal
This is what I call Kitty Cat Cocktail Hour.
I journal out in the backyard and drink my wine with our last two remaining cats.
Jade(left)16 yrs old and Furr-Ari 13yrs.
I'm slowly becoming okay with this.
This is my kitty cocktail hour. This is my new normal.