I hate when memories sneak up on you. Days you should remember, days that should stick out, somehow get lost in the shuffle of grief and sneak up on you unawares. I'm a Millenial, so of course it was Facebook that reminded me this morning: 4 years ago Debbie & Shane Got Engaged! The post showed photos we were tagged in together--a glimpse into our relationship...from wedding photos, to a photo of his urn with our wedding rings on top of it and a picture of us kissing in the background. I succumbed instantly to a wave of grief, breaking down into gasping sobs at my computer, and it changed the whole tone of the day, even though I was able to go on and do what I needed to do later. I am so lonely tonight. So aware that I am without my companion. Damn you, death.