Almost two o’clock in the afternoon and still I sit in my pajamas and robe. It’s been a long time since I have written in this blog, today I am writing for myself, mostly. The weather is cold, rainey, appropriate. The hour of his death is not far away and I can’t seem to do anything but sit and wait for it to pass.
I know some people would think I am wallowing in self pity, given the horrific recent tragedies in this country. The pain and suffering of victims’ families is...I can’t stop thinking about it, it presses heavy on my heart. But I am selfish and want my husband back.