I read one of your posts (Nov) and could so relate to alot of what you wrote. The frustration, hurt, and while you certainly would not be feeling humorous, there were little glimmers of a delightful sense of humor sprinkled on how you sum thoughts,emotions,reactions up. The love of my life is my second husband and I am his. We could not have been more opposite if you tried, yet somehow the friendship blossomed like a soppy hollywood movie ,and even though we met as oldies we lived like teenagers, him maybe more so than me.Wont bore you with anymore but our story is unique as every love story is. My Bobby passed after a long battle with Cancer.God has been my best friend and also my worst enermy.Spiritually I get the whole world corrputed by sin etc, but I guess what I dont get is Why God being after all ,didnt just anialate his creation ( since it was all so contaminated) like He did after the flood?....I still believe but Im pretty pissed off especially with so called Christians who spew out the same rethoric and who cherry pick what they want to quote!....I guess Im a little less pissed off with God ( at least today Im not) lol, and one day I hope to be strong enough to be real to someone else who longs for real raw loving support. I hope you are doing well whereever you are ( We, oops I live in NZ) Hubby ,Bobby was from Pa,USA.