Hello, Steve. Yes, those waves of grief are still out there, aren't they? They roll over me from time to time as well...but like you said...they come less often than they used to. I wonder often what my life is now...what it should be. It makes me feel lost and alone. But when I reflect more deeply, I remember that I asked those questions of myself before I lost Rick. The only difference is that I had Rick to talk all of these deep life questions out with. Now, I rely on myself...and sometimes, on friends and family, to discuss the deeper life questions. (Though it isn't nearly as meaningful as it was with my sweet husband.) I am grateful, as you say so frequently, I am grateful for the 32 years I had with Rick. His impact on my life is so very profound that I can barely describe it in words. In fact, the depth of the impact can't be described...it can only be felt...remembered...cherished...used to make today better. Yes...I am grateful. And that alone makes these days afterward more bearable. Thank you, Steve. (By the way, I just love the picture of you and Mike. When I look at it, I see love.) Cindy
Hello, Steve. Thank you for the nice comment on my post. I am about 20 months out...that seems so strange typing that number...20. It surprises me how unreal it still feels...almost 2 years out. Before it was me in these shoes, I would have thought the 'new' life would have taken over by now. Now I know.
I was reading your posts and understand that your Mike passed several years ago. Isn't it a miraculous thing how two human beings can meld together so completely at the heart? And when one goes, how completely it devastates the other? I was so spiritually wounded when Rick died, I could hardly speak. And now, here I am...just floating around. (That's how it feels...just floating.)
I wish you peace, Steve. Peace and love and healing.
Hello Steve, I have been reading your posts since I joined WV last year. My husband passed away three months ago. Your posts are so uplifting with positive thoughts which I surely need it. So happy to read you found someone that you are happy again. That is wonderful. Keep posting positive posts it will lift everyone spirit.
Steve, read your post on the 2009 board about your parents. My mom is home and my step dad is in the nursing home. I don't think you need a lawyer to do what your lawyer friend suggested. You can do it on your Own. Take Mom with you and go to the Board of social services, or wherever in California is the equivalent to the NJ board that puts people on Medicaid. My 83 year old mom actually did it on her OWN with barely any help from me. I was just her cheerleader and helper. I'll be happy to answer any of your questions. Diane
Steve, he is leaving you signs! Gives me goosebumps. Wow. I pray for signs every day. When we are open to them, I believe we will receive them. I loved the blue hair story... those memories are gifts. Take good care.
Steve, your writing is so magnificent. I pounce on your posts--for your open-heart, your honesty, your humor, your willingness to go deep and not hold back. You have a gift and you feel like a gift to me. I thank you, dearly.
Thanks, Steve. i love reading what you have written. I m such an emotional person at heart but my husband was a bit of a large figure (in small circles). The honoring has gone on for six months and I am having the hardest time grieving despite the fact I loved him so deeply. It helps me to have you share your real feelings.
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Hi Steve, I cannot seem to find you in the LGBT forum so thought I would post here. I am glad you found us and I am sorry for your loss and the hectic journey you have been through since your partner died. I was a caregiver as well for Karen for almost 10 years. Post whenever you feel the need and someone will respond. Hugs!
Welcome Steve: I'm sorry for your loss but I'm glad you found your way to this site. I hope you will find the same comfort and understanding here at Widowed Village that I have. In the beginning I just read the blogs and posts and lurked in chat. Post and join us in chat when you feel comfortable. It is nice to be among people who "Get It".