I know so many of us are in so many ways stuck in neutral.  Holding our breath, waiting for what we have been facing to go away, but it never will.  I find myself stuck in new ways.  I decided…

My wife and I used to giggle at women who were wearing too much makeup.  My wife almost never wore makeup at all, the only time she did was because her mother insisted on it for certain things. …

It has been such a long time since I last visited this site. I felt guilty tonight for staying away so long...and then...I read the posts of those on their 5th anniversaries.

I,…

I found it sadly amusing that I continue to walk around things.  Things that are in my way, things that shouldn't be where they are, things that really have no purpose anymore.  But I didn't put…

Today would have been our 11th Anniversary.  I've been dreading this day all month.  My emotions have been all over the place.  The incredible sadness followed by the bittersweet joy of memories. …

I don't know about all of you, but I should not shop alone.  My wife knew this, and would be sure to go with me if I went anywhere other than the grocery store, and even that could be dangerous. …

Over the last several months I have had many moments of reaching for or dealing with the phantoms around me.  The phantom voice in the house, the reach across the bed for the movement that…

I am sure we have all had that feeling, you gather your things to leave for the day and you get this feeling you forgot something.   Sometimes you get to your destination only to find you really…

During a regular old average conversation last week in the chat room, we talked about "happy places".  It was then that I realized, my happy place is gone.  Jerry's arms have always been my…