I love you through my pain
I love you through my loss
I love you through…Blog Infinity and beyond 2 Likes Tough days
Does this ever get easier or do you ever find yourself again? I feel as the anniversary of Kenny's death approaches that I feel more and more alone even when there are others around. Maybe I'm…Blog Tough days 1 Like feeling small
During a regular old average conversation last week in the chat room, we talked about "happy places". It was then that I realized, my happy place is gone. Jerry's arms have always been my…Blog feeling small 2 Likes
Gilbert died five months ago, and I'm beginning to realize that the Old Melissa died with him. Now I have to invent the New Melissa or allow her to surface; I'm not sure how it…Blog Home Alone 4 Likes Painful...Routine
As the days, weeks, now months have slowly passed since my wife died, I had things I had to do. Busy work yes, but it wasn't something I had ever done before. These required changes to my day. …Blog Painful...Routine 2 Likes Contradictions
It is funny the contradiction I have become. I complain about routines being messed up or being painful, and wanting to change things up. But then I want the routine to be there when I am ready…Blog Contradictions 2 Likes I'm a weather forecast and maybe a little bit
I'm a weather forecast and maybe a little bit
Certificate of Life
It's been awhile since I've had anything to say. Profound sadness has had me locked up in a choke hold. I tend to retreat within myself during those times. Like…
Today, I had to deliver a "certificate of death" for my husband to an agency for a matter this is not important to mention here. As I sat in the parking lot, reviewing the form - it's facts and…Blog Certificate of Life 17 Likes Lists: Wishes, Anger and Hope
Sorry for another long post but I have a lot that needs to get out these days....
Lists: wishes, anger and…Blog Lists: Wishes, Anger and Hope 19 Likes Lonely in a crowd
Today is Easter Saturday, fine and mild with an overcast sky first thing this morning though it has warmed up since then. Easter is another one of those family times so friends ask the widow: "…Blog Lonely in a crowd 1 Like
All these rooms contain your depth, your breath
Your thoughts on how they should look and feel
The wall unit you built in the dining room
Notwithstanding a…Blog Our Home 3 Likes Getting what you ask for, only to find out it
As I started down this path of rebuilding my life without my wife, I had nothing but good intentions. Clear up some things that needed to be done so that I didn't have to keep revisiting this…Blog Getting what you ask for, only to find out it 2 Likes Addicted to Camp? Well it can't be all bad..
I went to Camp Widow East (Tampa) last weekend and well it was fun, sad, interesting, engaging and weird all at the same time. You wouldn't expect a bunch of people who are grieving the loss of…Blog Addicted to Camp? Well it can't be all bad.. 2 Likes What's with her?
Since Jerry's death, I have heard the whisperings of people who may or may not be well-meaning. It is a really small town and everyone knows everyone. So, I expect that I have to hear things I…Blog What's with her? 2 Likes Reflections
I was sound asleep the 17th of December 2012 when the phone rang. I’d been up late that night and was sleeping in. Susan had gone to bed that night round 9pm saying that they’d worked her hard…Blog Reflections 2 Likes