it is such a blessing to find you all. I'm 9 weeks in to grieving the death of the love of my life. The physical pain is real. My heart hurts. Ron was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer one year ago today. Had an unsuccessful Whipple procedure. Sepsis twice. The cancer outran the chemo. He lived 10 months. I'm so lost. We have adult kids and they help but nothing takes his place. I'm restless, agitated, withdrawn. This is definitely the hardest road I've ever walked. I'm looking forward to interacting with people who know where I am in this journey.
LeslieS says
Posted on September 28, 2021 0
JulieH I have a similar story. My lifelong love got sick around this time of year too but we didn’t l warm it was pancreatic cancer till March. He’s gone a few months now and I’m so lost too.
EvaR says
Posted on September 27, 2021 0
Dear Julie, I can deeply relate to your pain. I also understand what you mean by the hardes road you’ve ever taken. I am not sure I can give you advice – I am a newbie here as I just lost my soulmate 2 weeks ago. I was not next to him because he left for a short trip before joining me in a foreign country again. I talked to him 20 minutes before he left us. It’s so irréel and frustrating and I am not sure I can survive this lost. Additionally I am all alone in a lockdown in a foreign country without being able to talk to or to hug a human being. Very hard lesson!
So as I said, I might not be able to advice but I am a good listener.
heartbroken artist says
Posted on September 23, 2021 0
JulieH-3, I’m sorry you are on this journey with us.
In June I lost the love of my life to metastatic breast cancer caused by an inherited BRCA2 mutation. (And there’s a whole lot of emotional baggage attached to that because of her family’s failure of duty-to-warn about the mutation.) We were practically joined at hip for 42 years. And we were about to retire and we had so many adventures planned out ahead of us. But now I’m directionless in my journey.
My daughter also inherited the BRCA2 mutation so I’m now a single dad currently being a caregiver for my daughter after her prophylactic surgery to reduce her cancer risk due to the mutation.
I have found the Newly Widowed Virtual Program, Tuesdays, 3:00 PM PDT, here on Soaring Spirits to be helpful.
Strength to you.