My grandmother died in March. My mother died in March. As bad as those were, they don't hold a candle to my wife, Elaine, dying in March. I get to the end of February and wish I could go to bed and wake up and it's April 1. That's never going to happen, so I have to feel the pain. These last few years have taught me that the pain has to be felt, there is no way around it. There are self-destructive ways to mask the pain, but all that does is postpone it. The pain has to be felt in…Continue
It's been a bit over four years for me. Today, I was thinking about what I regret about being married to Elaine. All of my regrets have one thing in common, that they are about the things we never got to do.
Elaine was afraid to fly. I should say terrified, she wouldn't even talk about it, and shut down when I brought the subject up. That meant that all our travels were only as far as we could drive. She got over that, and shortly before she died she flew to Arizona to visit her…Continue
Although it seems like a lifetime ago, it was four years ago today that my world turned upside down. March 22, 2012. The day I came home from work and tried to wake up my Elaine to have dinner, only to discover that she wasn't asleep. The day everything in my life changed. The day my life went from stable, happy, full of love and joy and adventure to this dark journey into pain.
For about the first two years, the only constant in my life was change. Now, life is settling down. …Continue
So I made the plunge and got married again. I didn't feel the need that I had to be married, but I was open to it. I'd been through a bad marriage, I'd been through a wonderful marriage and I knew which one I preferred, and I wasn't settling for anything less than wonderful.
I met Glory (current wife) and we hit things off right away. It wasn't always perfect, there was a lot that we had to work out, but we did and we ran away to Hawaii and got married after going together for a…Continue