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Ccdague commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2012
"Thinking of each of you during the most difficult time of the year.  I wish you peace, strength, and rest.  Six years is a long time, but flew by in an instant..........most of us still wonder what hit us.   Know that I will be…"
Dec 23, 2018
Ccdague commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2012
"Not sleeping....that’s my superpower again.  I’m back after a long absence.....not understanding why after six years I am feeling so sad.  Lots of memories drive me into long contemplation.....I can and do get comfor5 from…"
Jun 26, 2018
Ccdague commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2012
"To all of my sisters and brothers in well and be strong. I wish you love and peace from your grief. Where there is great grief there is also great love. I will not be returning to the site as I found no great or small support ......I…"
Mar 22, 2016
Ccdague commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2012
"Four years tomorrow March 22.....I still miss your smile. The spring is not quite as lovely.....ever. I will see you again my love.......we promised. Be well and strong. I love you. Xo"
Mar 21, 2016
Ccdague commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2012
"Hello to all of us "fours"........our losses tick tock by the four year mark. I thought that by now I might be dusting off the memories of a 39 year marriage.....but those memories are vivid, bright, and full of life. I no longer weep…"
Mar 12, 2016
Ccdague commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2012
" are young. Don't feel that you were meant to be alone. I, too had a great, epic love of almost 40 years with Denny. One thing we taught each other was how to laugh and be strong. We spoke frequently about the afterlife during his…"
Nov 11, 2015
Ccdague commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2012
"My heart aches for those of us who continue to live with extreme loneliness and isolation. It's been 3 1/2 years since Denny has been gone......I miss him every day. BUT.....I am fortunate that both of us worked in healthcare.....and the…"
Oct 19, 2015
Ccdague replied to Soaring Spirits's discussion Dating and love
"My husband of 38 years died in 2012 following a 4 year battle with melanoma. A wonderfully satisfying marriage......but I know I was not meant to be alone.....I'm half of a partnership. After about a year I gingerly stuck a toe back into the…"
Aug 7, 2014
Dianne in Nevada replied to Ccdague's discussion New England Get together
"Our regional group program debuted during the second half of last year, so we're just getting started. Here's a link to the map that shows where our current groups are located. We don't currently have groups in CT or MA; however, at…"
Mar 19, 2014
Soaring Spirits replied to Ccdague's discussion New England Get together
"Hi Reunited, This conversation is significantly overlapping the one we are having on email so I will reply to your concerns there, since we''ve already started it as a private conversation. As for the regional groups, if there is not one…"
Mar 19, 2014
Soaring Spirits replied to Ccdague's discussion New England Get together
"Hi friend, Camp is a VERY large program -- from 100 to 300 people in each location -- and thus offered just three times a year at this time. If you want us to grow, we welcome your support. We do now have a regional meetups program, you can learn…"
Mar 17, 2014
Soaring Spirits replied to Ccdague's discussion New England Get together
"Friends, this one thread is NOT an efficient way to find others near you -- since the original post, Soaring Spirits, our parent organization, has started a regional meetups program and we'd LOVE your support in helping connect widowed people.…"
Mar 17, 2014
Memawluv left a comment for Ccdague
"I am so excited to be a part of this.  There are simply things that I've never really felt comfortable talking about, and here I know there are women who have felt the same, been through the same.  Thank you so much, Carol, for…"
Aug 3, 2013
Ccdague commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2012
"Brandywine Gal.... Also just passed the one year well as on June 1 would have been our 40th wedding anniversary. Such a year of changes, revelation, and emotional instability. Thoughts and energy going out to you as tomorrow you embark…"
Jun 8, 2013
AndiW78 replied to Ccdague's discussion New England Get together
"I am also interested.....I live in Central Connecticut and would be willing to drive pretty much anywhere in Southern New England"
Apr 28, 2013
Suz commented on Ccdague's event Denny
"Carol, I have been thinking of you all day. We are so "close" in this whole business. I wonder how you are doing and if you have planned something for the day. It doesn't seem possible that is could be a whole year, does it? You are a…"
Mar 22, 2013

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Posted on February 27, 2013 at 6:50pm 2 Comments

Dearest Denny.....

As we slide into march, I become acutely aware that we approach the anniversary of your transition to your new existence. 12 months ago we tearfully prepared for your anticipated departure. I clung as would a spoiled child to a favorite toy. But you deftly slipped my grasp........and I was left with tears, rage, loneliness and anxiety. Now I know that you had to go.......that a wonderous existence was are finally able to explore the universe as it was… Continue

If Winter Comes.....

Posted on December 24, 2012 at 11:30am 7 Comments

How strange, this quiet house of mine. Christmas music softly in the background....I had worried that the sounds of my favorite melodies would send me careening over the edge of fresh grief.....but instead the familiar music and words brought a quiet smile to me. I put up the tree, remembering Denny's struggle last year to place ornaments just so.....he was a perfectionist.........and though pain stabbed at his back....his delight in having the tree was so obvious. A few gifts sit under the… Continue


Posted on July 1, 2012 at 9:02am 1 Comment

Dear Denny....

One full season has passed since you left this world of pain for your new existence in the next realm. It was on the first full day of spring that you slipped your earthly bonds to begin new extraordinary adventures. It was a beautiful, clear, warm New England day.....winter had relinquished her icy grip rather reluctantly......and the sun shone on your beautiful spirit. The garden stretched and yawned into wakefulness...the clematis bloomed gloriously, and the peonies… Continue

Life in the house

Posted on June 30, 2012 at 7:47pm 2 Comments

There is a new little life in our house. Bishop, an 8 week old collie puppy is now a permanent resident. Still soft, with his puppy fur, oversize paws ( he's going to be large)' striking color, he gives me joy and something to wake up for again. Who knew? Molly, my tonkinese cat, is not quite sure of this intruder....but he will win her heart as he won mine.

New life....after so many months of watching one spark slowly go out........could this little fur ball be my guide out of the… Continue

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At 4:47am on August 3, 2013, Memawluv said…

I am so excited to be a part of this.  There are simply things that I've never really felt comfortable talking about, and here I know there are women who have felt the same, been through the same.  Thank you so much, Carol, for referring me to this site.  Now I guess I have to reach out to "Help" to see how to sign up for different groups.  I'm sure your anniversary was hard to get through, and you see and hear Denny every way you turn.  Does it get better? No, I don't think so, but it does keep changing.  My memories, while in the beginning just in turmoil, are now more vivid and joyful.  And with Erin's wedding, you'll just have bunches you can share with Denny.  Life is good.

At 9:25am on November 8, 2012, smallfish1 (Mariann) said…
Got your message. A get together sounds great. Would love to meet some folks in person. Any thoughts about when?
At 6:28pm on August 1, 2012, bj628(Bonnie) said…

I know many diseases are UGLY, it is so hard to watch you healthy active loved one loe the battle.. Melanoma is an especially sneaky and nasty cancer..

Sedning you warm HUGS

At 12:52pm on July 18, 2012, suebru (Sue) said…

Thank you for you for your comment. Glad I am not alone :-)

At 4:32pm on July 8, 2012, CharliesGirl said…

thank you for asking to be my friend.


At 7:44pm on July 4, 2012, lovie said…

Cc, thanks for the friend request.  I so remember those first months and how I survived them I really do not know.  I was not aware of Widowed Village until a few months ago and wish I had had a similar place to visit during my first year.  I am near three years widowed (September 17, 2009) and I never thought that I could be where I am today.  God and time have been my salvation. I literally ache when I read of those in the agonizing pain and sorrow that I felt initially. So I hope that I can offer hope that grief can be processed and it can be overcome. We will always miss our loved one, but life can once again be enjoyable. You can take their memory with you and live again. I think the true appreciation of life and how it should never be taken for granted can actually make this second part of our lives a little more precious.  Are you ging to Camp Widow West? I am and look forward to personally met so many of the people I have met here.  Take care and wishing the best for you as you move forward in this difficult first year. If I can help in any way, do not hesitate to contact me.  Tiffany

At 11:20pm on May 25, 2012, Niki said…

Thanks so much for the birthday wishes.  It was great chatting with you the other day. 

Peace and love!

At 12:39pm on April 19, 2012, Suz said…

Jud was a behavioral and developmental pediatrician and did a fellowship in Boston four years ago. We spent five months there and had a fabulous time. What a great area! Carol, I, too, return to an empty house. I can't believe how different it feels. I miss his "energy' and I will still have the feeling that he will walk through the door. I hate walking in and I have to force myself to go to sleep. I have one daughter who is thirty-two (I hope she will marry her boyfriend and give me grandchildren). I am lucky in that she lives here but she is busy with her life and job, too. I am lucky to have two dogs but I think I am getting a little nutty. I talk to them a lot ;-) I used to be a school psychologist but the fibro ended that.You are right that I totally ignored my own medical needs. Especially during the last month when he was really sick. Adrenaline is a great pain killer.

So glad you are here!



At 6:02pm on April 16, 2012,
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Welcome to our community.... I hope we can keep you company on your journey ahead. Please look around a bit and read this basic introduction to the site. You can find more information about how the community works under "Help!" in the navigation bar, and we'll send you a few newsletters with tips and ideas in the coming weeks. If you need a little more help, go to the Home page and look in the right hand column to see the link to a "Help Desk" form.
We all use the site differently, but we hope you feel comfortable sharing among us in the coming days, weeks, and months.
Big hug!
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At 11:32am on April 13, 2012, Lisa (lost) Lamb said…

I'm so sorry for your loss Carol, but I'm glad you found us. You will find great comfort and understanding here, along with wonderful new friends. I hope WV will help you as much as it has me over the past 10 months Welcome


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