Well, I've made it through most of the second set of holidays. Charlies birthday would have been Jan,6th. He would have been 64. That's the end of the biggies till May which will be Mothers Day, my birthday and would have been our 46th anniversary.
There are days I don't think I'll ever be really happy again. Then there are days I believe I've put my grief behind me. Oh what pranksters our minds are. It's different day to day, week to week, month to month.
I am resolved…Continue
I still find that hard to say. I'm a widow.
Six months a widow. I don't think things have gotten much better. I'm still bitter and angry. This week has been difficult,and now Mother's Day. I wasn't his mother but I was the mother of his children and he always made it a special day for me.
Then my birthday is May 26th and what would have been our 45th anniversary is May 31st. Follow that up with Fathers Day in June. My summer is off to a rough start...
I took that short…Continue
I've not posted here for a while. There have been a few changes. I 've been going through all the financial stuff and have come to the realization that Hubby has left me with too little funds. I am barely going to have enough to pay the mortgage and utilities. I do have some savings but I need to make them last for about 2 yrs,3 mths. I think I'll have enough each month from those savings to make up the difference.That is when I will be eligible for SS and Medicare. My health insurance…Continue
I hate it hate it hate it. I do not like this being a widow.
I have spent the day taking down the few Christmas decorations and the little tree I bought. In the south it's supposed to be bad luck to take it down before New Years Day. I'll take my chances this year.
Hubby always did the tree and put everything up afterwards. I miss him so much. His teasing grin, his gentle touch, his oh-so-tight hugs when I needed comforting. He's not here to comfort me during these missing him…Continue