"How I envy those of you who have received signs. At 4 years, 11 months, I've yet to be really sure he's with me. things happen that I tell myself were influenced by him, but mostly I don't believe it. As the…"
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Maya, GEM's kyttn replied to Supa Dupa Fresh's discussion When did you remove your wedding rings?
"I now wear my own wedding ring and my engagement ring on my right hand. I've lost enough weight that they were getting uncomfortably loose on my left hand. I can't stand not having anything on my left ring finger, though, so I…"
Maya, GEM's kyttn commented on Supa Dupa Fresh's group Suddenly widowed
"Kathy, you aren't alone in feeling this way. 6 months ago I couldn't have offered you any hope of it getting better, but now I can. It's been 4 years, 8 months since I lost Greg. I miss him daily, still reach for him…"
LarryT commented on Maya, GEM's kyttn's blog post Lost
"Same here. I still have our little son and he is the best, but it hurts not having her here to share this. All our plans, all the things we'd started, all the places we wanted to go together, that all came to a stop. Now, I don't know what…"
Chris' Mel commented on Maya, GEM's kyttn's blog post Lost
"This is exactly how I am feeling today. I have kids, some family, and a few friends but it is not what I had. I am missing him so much today. Thank you for writing this and reminding me that we are not alone in this."
honeys(puddin) commented on Maya, GEM's kyttn's blog post Lost
"Very true words. Family and friends are great but they're not my husband. All that's left of me will have to form together to become whoever it is I am without him. I'm not rushing anything. I'm taking my…"
Rebirth.Tanya (Tanya) commented on Maya, GEM's kyttn's blog post Lost
"Sending prayers for comfort and strength your way..."
Lauralee commented on Maya, GEM's kyttn's blog post Lost
"The book I am reading now had the following in it that really expressed how I feel so lost too: "When someone you love dies, it's as if they leave you with half shares of your life together. The person you were in their eyes…"
bettye commented on Maya, GEM's kyttn's blog post Lost
"My kids are there for me as well as friends and other family members, but the person who knew what I was going to say before I said it, who was always there for me is gone. "
Blue Snow commented on Maya, GEM's kyttn's blog post Lost
"I feel exactly the same way. {{{{{hugs}}}}}"
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Lost
I hate that there is no one left in my world who knows when I am really ok or not, that there's no one that I am comfortable sharing absolutely everything with, and so few that I can be honest with about what is inside. Logically, I know I'm not completely alone. I know I'm loved and cared for. Today, right now, it just isn't enough.See More
Maya, GEM's kyttn commented on Supa Dupa Fresh's group Suddenly widowed
"Sometimes i think i'm lucky that the decision to move somewhere else was taken out of my hands by the fire. On the very rare occasions i had to go back to the townhouse to check on the rebuilding, i felt like i was torn apart. It…"
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Hoping you have a wonderful day today, Maya.
Happy Birthday!
Dianne"
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Lost
Posted on July 29, 2012 at 9:32pm 8 Comments 0 Likes
I hate that there is no one left in my world who knows when I am really ok or not, that there's no one that I am comfortable sharing absolutely everything with, and so few that I can be honest with about what is inside. Logically, I know I'm not completely alone. I know I'm loved and cared for. Today, right now, it just isn't enough.
what I miss most
Posted on February 24, 2012 at 4:58pm 0 Comments 2 Likes
I find myself thinking 'I miss X most' so very often, about different things. His laugh, his voice, his kiss, his support, leaning on him in a crisis, coming home (or waking) to a cup of tea waiting for me, and oh so many other things. Today, what I miss more than anything is touch - his touch specifically, of course, but also just touches in general.
I went from a life where I got hugged and kissed every morning, evening and night, where we held hands when we went to…
Continue one more tie broken
Posted on January 18, 2012 at 8:53am 5 Comments 0 Likes
I just sent in the request to be taken off my husband's insurance, which I had been allowed to keep (paying for it, of course). It's gotten to the point where I simply can't afford to keep paying for it, not when i can get my own insurance for SO much less through my own job, and better insurance at that.
The insurance, however, is my last tie to my husband. The last thing he had in place to take care of me. Because I lost him in a fire, I lost just about everything I had of his. …
Continue It just gets worse
Posted on November 16, 2011 at 6:00pm 2 Comments 0 Likes
It seems like life without Greg just gets worse and worse. I haven't felt able to reach out, to lean on anyone since August, but I thought if life just didn't get any worse, eventually I'd learn to cope with just me. Then came our wedding anniversary in September, and his (deceased) father's birthday (I adored Dad McM), and Greg's birthday in October. Now Thanksgiving and Christmas are looming. Someone (either my son or my daughter's fiancee) stole money from her. My son has confessed to…
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- At 8:46am on April 4, 2012,
Dianne in Nevada said… 
Hoping you have a wonderful day today, Maya.
Happy Birthday!
Dianne
- At 6:01am on April 4, 2012,
Denise said… - Happy birthday!
- At 2:25pm on August 25, 2011,
Krista Westervelt (whoknows) said… - Just popping by to say hi. Hope this week has been a reasonably decent one.
- At 7:50pm on July 15, 2011, Dianne in Nevada said…
- ((HUGS))
- At 8:44pm on June 14, 2011, Dianne in Nevada said…
- Hi Maya. Have missed your voice here. Hope all is well.
- At 4:56pm on May 1, 2011, Dianne in Nevada said…
You're in my thoughts, Maya.
- At 10:52pm on April 12, 2011,
joe said… - Thanks Maya!
- At 9:03am on April 7, 2011,
CrazyWidow said… - Thinking of you as you battle the dark days.
- At 4:35pm on April 6, 2011,
VOLUNTEERSupa Dupa Fresh said… - Maya, I'm thinking of you today, please know that you are loved and appreciated.
- At 8:24am on April 4, 2011, Dianne in Nevada said…
I see today is your birthday, Maya. I do hope that some very special memories surround you today to ease your soul and bring a smile to your face. Try to enjoy your very special day.
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