Boy, that was hard. I went to see a specialist and he asked my marital status. For 14 years married I was always happy to say married. It was so hard to breathe at that moment, let alone to say the…Continue
"Hi Mrs Bear,
Your "coasting in denial" is spot on. It's sort of a internal self defense that our minds work for us. Some times that fog can last a full year or so. It depends upon the person and each of us, while on…"
"Thanks booktime. You're right, they probably don't realize it. I am going to write them a quick note since right now my emotions are so raw I don't think I can verbalize what I need. Thanks again for the help."
"Breathe. Your grief is so raw, there is no normal for you right now. When you can breathe, you might be able to talk to them about how you are feeling. If you can't, don't worry. What you are experiencing is what we all have and are…"
Right now still overwhelmed by life. It's almost 4 months. I guess I thought I was ok because I survived the first 3. I must have just been coasting in denial. Right now I feel like I am breaking. I can't sleep and everything has me bawling. I let me niece and her 17 year old son move in and they are touching things that wa Bill's responsibilities and I am loosing it. We were together for 17 years and it was all fine before he left me suddenly and unexpectedly. He was very technical and I…See More
"We can't go back to what its, you make decisions with what you know at the time. Just hold to the love you had for him. Take it one hour, then one day, then one week at a time. I lost my husband suddenly and unexpectedly to a…"
It is hard to check that box Widower. Susan and I were married for 35 years. Her medical problems were many and varied. We used the same hospital for the last 20 years, and it came to the point where even the "Gurney…"
"Same thing happened to me - had to go back to the same hospital where he died for a test. They always ask about your contact information. Fortunately they had a box of Kleenex close by and no one was in the waiting room. "
"I do not want to answer that question. I was also married 14 years. Its only been 2 weeks so I might be too early to be thinking about that. I have found comfort knowing there are others having the same issues and seeing what they do to help. "
"Thank you, Mrs Bear! I have been have a rough few days with my grief- I'm 6 months out. I am printing this off and taping it to my kitchen cupboard so I'll remind myself how good I had it for 18 years.
Your title is what caught my…"
I cry at the laughterI laugh through the tearsI dance with the sobsCounting minutes, missing yearsI whisper at the noiseHeart left in shredsShouting at the silenceFor words we never saidI reach through the darknessFor love that isn't thereI'll find it in the light againOnce I bear my widow's tearsSee More
"How you speak of Marcus tells me you loved him dearly and I know he probably loved you just as much or more. He would know that you would grieve for him but I am sure he wouldn't want you to suffer or e hirt. I always say to myself…"
Welcome to Widville, Mrs Bear. I am truly sorry for your loss, and hope you find caring support and friendship here. Here's the best place to start: Need help using the site? Click the "help" link at the top of page. You can join the Groups that fit you to connect to others with similar experiences. Share your story. And the "chat room" is open 24/7. Take a look at our Forum discussions where you'll find meaningful conversations taking place. I look forward to getting to know you here in Widville. Take care of yourself.