Hi PattyM. I am so sorry for your loss, and I know exactly how you feel. All you can do is take it one day at a time. Pray that God gives you the strength to carry on. It will get better; it will just take time. My husband passed from lung cancer last year and its a hurt that stays with you for a long time. People that have not walked in our shoes don't understand and will not understand until their time come.
Welcome to Widville, PattyM. I'm so very sorry for your loss, but pleased that you found us. You'll find caring support and friendship here.
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