It has been five long years, and boy have they been long. I have worked really really hard to rebuild my shattered life. Most of the time I am in a pretty good place. I won’t go into everything I have been thru and done, because we are here on this site and we have been there. The ability to abbreviate my story in this space is one that I have really begun to appreciate. Going to weddings has got to be one of the worst widow activities next to planning…Continue
This was a milestone year. 5 years. how it happened I don't know I think the below makes so much sense where I am right now
I did not write this but I think that after five years these are indeed the things I have learned. I wish I knew who wrote it because I would give them credit, but whoever wrote it really gets it.
A time finally comes when you "get it" ... when, in the midst of all your tears and insanity you stop in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head…Continue
It is the stupidest fucking day of the year. It is DESIGNED to make everyone partnered or not to feel bad about what they give or what they get. Top that together with the NOT STOP COVERAGE of Fifty Shades of Stupid and I am ready to punch a baby. I cannot believe that a book that celebrates a woman abdicating control of her life when we ALL LOST CONTROL of our lives. I wish that someone would talk about sitting there watching my husband…Continue
Right after Bill died I had a lot of problems. Tons of them, millions of them, and all of them, each and every one directly related to his death. I was in the Hole. They ranged from a soul crushing paralyzing depression to the inability to open my garage door after a snow storm (of course I could not remove the snow) and power failure. I had an old car with a lot of problems. I had lost my job and my career of over 29 years was over. Most of my friends went on what I call the widow…Continue