"Thanks Susie. I would LOVE to hang out with you in person and have a meal or two ! I know about the jealousy too. I get jealous of people that have figured out their passion. I am so lost over what to do with my life. I…"
"I am doing my best to put a period to "that" life. Michael certainly has. He is never coming back and I can hold onto him and our stuff for as long as I wish, and make myself absolutely sick with grief, or I can have faith that…"
"Hi everyone. Nice to read your posts. My 4th year anniversary was March 1st and yes I see a tremendous difference in the level of my crying and the frequency of my tidal waves of grief. Michaels birthday is Feb 20th and as I…"
"Hi Neen, dazed and Sharona. I personaly have been doing much better with my grief lately. I am coming to a peace surrounding Mikes passing, my dessimated brokenheart and the passing of my entire lifestyle. I am begining to see…"
"I shared in a prior posting how Leslie my girlfriend and I had sat down aand watched our family videos together earlier this week. One of those videos was the wedding rehearsal and wedding to her 2nd husband. Her first husband had been…"
"Hi Trotwood. Im so sorry that you are going thru this. I wish I was there to give you a hug and take you out for ice cream or something. I am not involved in any organized religion at all, partly because they never welcomed Mike…"
"I also rediscovered my music. I was classically trained on the piano from the age of three and grew tired of it at 11 and broke my arm so I wouldnt have to play anymore. I have sung since a very small child and always thought I would be…"
"Hi everybody. Hope this note finds everybody hanging in there. Feb 20th was Mikeys Bday, March 1st the anniversary of his passing, and today, the anniversary of his funeral service.
I find that I have grown tired of being depressed,…"
"Been having weird bizarre nightmares of desperate search to kill myself. Please dont worry, not a conscience thought in real life, yes pain horrible, yes think about how nice it would be to just gently pass from natural causes at times, but…"
"Hi everyone. I was so happy to see everyones post. Even though we are all struggling and going thru stuff, I for one, really need this place still and find it such a comfort and place for understanding.
With Mikes bday on Feb 20th, and…"
"Hi Susieg and everyone ! Well, Mikes bday was this past thursday Feb 20th. Today is my best friend from childhoods bday, he passed in 1993 from aids at 31. 4yr anniversary of the passing of my old life, 3-1-09.
Its been a…"
"Hi Susieg. I do similar things, because Mike and I were tgether so long, 1979-2009, Im lookin at dates of things to see if b4 or prior to his passing. When I see a movie, that I have seen before I want to know if I remember watching it…"
"Well, without realizing it, I have put on 50 + lbs, quit smoking 3-2011, but still crave them weekly, and my candy-sweet-chocolate-ice cream cravings have sky rocketed. Its all from this deep 24-7-365 pain that I hold and cant seem to upease.…"
"Oh My Goodness ! Im so glad to see some people back on here ! I missed all of you and hope all is well with the others. Debbie0423 those quotes are beautiful and describe our hearts to a tee. LOVE the mud one. Im…"
Steve, he is leaving you signs! Gives me goosebumps. Wow. I pray for signs every day. When we are open to them, I believe we will receive them. I loved the blue hair story... those memories are gifts. Take good care.
Steve, your writing is so magnificent. I pounce on your posts--for your open-heart, your honesty, your humor, your willingness to go deep and not hold back. You have a gift and you feel like a gift to me. I thank you, dearly.
Thanks, Steve. i love reading what you have written. I m such an emotional person at heart but my husband was a bit of a large figure (in small circles). The honoring has gone on for six months and I am having the hardest time grieving despite the fact I loved him so deeply. It helps me to have you share your real feelings.
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Hi Steve, I cannot seem to find you in the LGBT forum so thought I would post here. I am glad you found us and I am sorry for your loss and the hectic journey you have been through since your partner died. I was a caregiver as well for Karen for almost 10 years. Post whenever you feel the need and someone will respond. Hugs!
Welcome Steve: I'm sorry for your loss but I'm glad you found your way to this site. I hope you will find the same comfort and understanding here at Widowed Village that I have. In the beginning I just read the blogs and posts and lurked in chat. Post and join us in chat when you feel comfortable. It is nice to be among people who "Get It".