27th March, nearly made it, nearly survived the hardest year of my life.
In some ways it still feels like yesterday that you left, that my life imploded - in others a lifetime since you were here.
I can still come home some days and be surprised you aren't in the kitchen with my coffee like always but the pain is not so sharp anymore, I have reached an acceptance that I never thought I would, regret that you had to go, that we didn't get to fulfil the…Continue
Wherever you are I hope you are ok, I miss you but then you know that. Guess all our planning was pointless huh we didn't see this did we, not even in the darkest moments did we see this one.
I hope you are happy and with your parents and my loved ones, look after the boys - they need a Dad and couldn't get better than you.
The kids are great, you would be so proud, did you see the way Mark Jnr looked out for me at your funeral? Hes…Continue
Over the last few weeks I have noticed an new optimism in my thoughts, that maybe my life can go on, I can be happy again.
I am eating again and not only eating but cooking real food and not just throwing stuff in the microwave.
I received the worst news since his death last week - had his doctors followed the care plan they laid out for him then his cancer should have been detected in time for successful treatment, he should still be…Continue