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Susan commented on TammyRI's blog post I just would rather be dead
"Tammy, I hear you. I've been there (still go there, too). Just please hang on. One night, I surfed the web looking for suicide prevention help. I found a lot of good stuff, but the one thing that really resonated…"
Gordy's widow commented on TammyRI's blog post I just would rather be dead
"Tammy, I hear, know exactly where you are at, (hug) Hang on! I keep praying that some day that feeling will go away, And that I will feel like I have a reason to get out of bed ......"
AEDforever (Ali) commented on TammyRI's blog post I just would rather be dead
"((Tammy)) This sounds so familiar to me. The grief for me was so intense. I didn't really want to kill myself..but I didn't want to feel the way I did every damn day! What has happened, though, is I've just held on,…"
hendrixx2 commented on TammyRI's blog post I just would rather be dead
"hi ((Tammy)),
So sad to hear you're struggling and can understand your feeling about rather being dead; we know we don't really want that, but it is the feeling. It is a challenge trying to sort of just how to reset this different life and…"
missmyhunny commented on TammyRI's blog post I just would rather be dead
"So sorry that you feel that way, and sorry for what you are going through and your loss. Losing my husband a few weeks ago i know its hard to find any meaning in life anymore. I think most of us early in our grief feel this way, totally lost and…"
Lindy Lou commented on TammyRI's blog post I just would rather be dead
"It is natural to feel that way. You need to set yourself a small schedule. Like a time to go walking every day. Walking and sunshine will do amazing things for you. You do need to take the focus off of yourself, but when you don't know what to…"
lizbeth4 commented on TammyRI's blog post I just would rather be dead
"Hi Tammy, I know how you feel. I lost my Husband 40 days ago. I feel lost and so full of sadness. I feel like I am in a dark void and can't find my way out. I try to get out and talk to people, ect... but in…"
Sue left a comment for TammyRI
"Hi Tammy,
I am new and saw in the chat that you were from RI like me. I just wanted to connect. Are you going to the conference? This site is a Godsend that I wish I found earlier. I lost my love 11 months ago after a 7 week battle with lung cancer.…"
TammyRI commented on TammyRI's blog post I don't want it to be a year already!
"Thank you for all your responses!! and Im so glad in a way....sounds awful doesn't it!? But I know you are feeling the same things and Im not crazy. Well okay maybe a little ;) But it seems we are all kinda feeling the same…"
TammyRI commented on tlb1630's blog post Amazing how a broken heart grows strong...
"Well said Teri! Its exactly how I am feeling as well. Thank you for sharing that!!!"
TammyRI commented on Glenda's blog post My Story...the short version.
"Thank you for sharing your story. I am glad you are having some good days. Its a long process. "
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I just would rather be dead
Posted on April 21, 2013 at 1:47pm 10 Comments 0 Likes
Does anyone else feel like this?
I am struggling something awful. I don't really want to be dead, but Id rather be dead than feel this every day! I am not suicidal, but I do wonder if I didn't have children and this continues to be like this what I would consider.
I just don't know what to do with myself. Im in the house a lot and I know that isn't helpful, but I don't know what to do. I've heard hobbies, volunteer, etc., etc., -- I need to be around…
Continue I don't want it to be a year already!
Posted on April 2, 2013 at 4:02pm 6 Comments 1 Like
April 16 will mark one year since my husband's death. To me one year seems like it should feel much longer than it does. This scares me. It scares me because I feel, and in part know, that the feeling of loss will never go away. I don't want a year to be over yet. I'm sure this is going to sound crazy, but I feel like if a year goes by I will have to let go of him.
I can't explain what I'm feeling exactly. I feel like one year is this monumental date. ONE…
Continue Husband's upcoming 1st year anniversary.
Posted on March 15, 2013 at 12:34pm 3 Comments 1 Like
The anniversary of my husband's death is about a month a way. Ive been asking God what might be a good way to remember Billy on that day. I've come up with a few ideas, but tonight while looking up at the stars and thinking Billy is up there with the Lord I was inspired. My husband was taken instantly without any warning. As tragic as that is, I know where he resides eternally. Because he asked Jesus to be his Lord and Saviour and served him (and yes he was human so…
Continue II Hate this New Life!
Posted on February 12, 2013 at 6:40pm 4 Comments 1 Like
I thought it would be a great idea to go on a cruise with my 17 year old niece. You would think that Id be excited about it as we leave Friday, but Im not. Im not excited about anything lately. One day just turns into the next. I've been sleeping a lot. I feel very alone and lost. I have God, but even with Him I still am feeling very alone and lost. I miss having my husband who took good care of me in so many ways. I never had to worry about a lot of things. He was one of those men…
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- At 7:48am on April 23, 2013,
Jpswife(Cathy) said… - Praying for you today. Cathy
- At 11:41pm on April 3, 2013,
Sue said… Hi Tammy,
I am new and saw in the chat that you were from RI like me. I just wanted to connect. Are you going to the conference? This site is a Godsend that I wish I found earlier. I lost my love 11 months ago after a 7 week battle with lung cancer. My only child moved out so just me. So hard. I am still trying to learn how everything works here. Please sleep well.
Sue
- At 11:10am on February 28, 2013, Jpswife(Cathy) said…
- I've prayed many times "Lord, may I go with John"? He had a terminal disease ALS/Lou Gehrig's Disease
Now I pray "God , I know John's happy now, help me to be HAPPY again , just me & my daughter
- At 11:05am on February 28, 2013, Jpswife(Cathy) said…
- Ok it went thru
HI TAMMY
Sorry we have to become friends this way but glad its with a fellow,sister!:)
- At 11:03am on February 28, 2013, Jpswife(Cathy) said…
- Hey Tammy--( I typed a message as a reply to your note but it wouldn't send). I'llmtry this
- At 11:03am on February 28, 2013, Jpswife(Cathy) said…
- Hey Tammy--( I typed a message as a reply to your note but it wouldn't send). I'llmtry this
- At 11:03am on February 28, 2013, Jpswife(Cathy) said…
- Hey Tammy--( I typed a message as a reply to your note but it wouldn't send). I'llmtry this
- At 3:31pm on October 27, 2012,
smallfish1 (Mariann) said… Tammy,
Are you prepared for the storm?
- At 10:55pm on September 22, 2012,
Robinak said… Hi Tammy thank-you for the friendship.
- At 8:28pm on September 19, 2012,
telechick said…
Pleased on't say, "Call me if you need anlthing." I'll never call you because I have no idea what I need. Trying to figure out what you could do for me takes more energy than I have. So, in advance, let me give you some ideas:
(a) Bring food or a movie over to watch together. ;li l
(b) Send me a card on special holidays, his birthday, and the anniversary of his death, and be sure to mention his name. You can't make me cry. The tears are here and I will love you for giving me the opportunity to shed them because someone cared enough about me to reach out on this difficult day.
(c) Ask me more than once to join you at a movie or lunch or dinner. I may so no at first or even for a while, but please don't give up on me because somewhere down the line, I rnay be ready, and if you've given up then I really will be alone.
(d) Understand how difficult it is for rne to be surrounded by couples, to walk into events alone, to go home alone, to feel out of place in the same situations where I used to feel so comfortable. ls
Please don't judge me now - or think that I'm behaving strangely. Remember I 'm grieving.I may even be in shock. I am afraid. I may feel deep rage.I may even feel guilty. But above all I hurt. I'm experiencing a pain unlike any I've ever felt before and one that can't be imaqined by anyone who has not walked in my shoes.
I Don't worry if you think I'm getting better and then suddenly I seem to slip backward. Grief makes me behave this way at times. And please don't tell me you know how I feel, or that it's time for me to get on with my life. What I need now is time to grieve.
Most of all thank you for being my friend. Thank you for your patience. Thank you for caring. Thank you for helping, for understanding. Thak you for praying for me.
And remember in the days or years ahead, after your loss- when you need me as I have needed you - I will understand. And then I will come and be with you.
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